Why Won't God Give Me A Baby!
If you have been discouraged and have felt like God has forsaken you in the area of having a baby I can tell you today that I have been there. I know what it is like to have so many people ask the same question over and over again. “When are you guys going to have a baby?” Many times, I wanted to say obviously if you already see that we don’t have any kids by now then this means were having some challenges. Other times, I wanted to say, “I don’t know, ask God.” There were also times when I wanted to say, “don’t ask me that question ever again.” Just stop asking. Like, I was in the past, you probably get tired of hearing people say “it will happen in God’s timing, maybe you all are meant to adopt, or you need some patience. I can remember thinking” If another person tells me to try another product or fertility home remedy I’m going to scream. If I get invited to another baby shower!!!!!!huh. Why God, Why!
On my loonnnggg journey there were things that did indeed work for me and there were also lots of failures too. I want to be honest with you on what did work and what didn’t. I am a strong believer in natural alternatives to healing especially because the bible says in Revelation that the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations (rev 22:2). Since, I knew that faith without works is dead. I tried natural ways first to show my faith by my works.
Several products were used at different times during my 6-7 years of my TTC journey. Some methods were used together while others were taken alone. Christopher’s Reproductive Factor (worked but took almost 3 months) , Fertibella (didn’t work) , Fertilitea (worked bfp in 5-6 weeks), Pre-seed (worked), FertileCM (worked), Colonic Irrigation (worked J), Reproductive Massage (didn’t work), Maca powder (didn’t work ), Geritol (didn’t work), Women’s Best Friend by Crystal Star (worked), Herbal Tampons, Natural Progesterone Cream (didn’t work), Instead Softcups (didn’t work ) and finally as a last and final resort Clomid (didn’t work).
I was indeed able to achieve pregnancy with some of these methods but nothing stopped me from having the 4 miscarriages. The fertility specialist had no answers for me. Everything in our tests checked out pretty much normal. My process had drawn me even closer to God to find out what was in his heart and mind for my case. I didn’t allow the voice of the enemy turn me to forsaking my belief in God and the power of Christ. I just wanted some understanding on the purpose of why I was going through so much difficulty in bearing children.
On May 03, 2014, I got my miracle. He is a healthy baby boy who brings so much fulfillment and joy to our marriage. God did it. All those prophecies and prophetic words were finally manifested. I conceived all naturally through God releasing a powerful word about my situation. I felt the supernatural touch of God while rejoicing and praising God for the words spoken out of the mouth of his prophet. I found myself pregnant the very next month from getting the word of the Lord. God ended my pain. He caused the miscarriage problems to end. He made me whole.
I’m here to encourage you to remain faithful in your walk with God. It will come to pass! He loves you and he has not forgotten.
Now in this season, I have seen an awesome move of God in my personal life and ministry. Things that I have been petitioning for years are being answered. The father is looking at our faithfulness. He wants to know where our heart is. Are we conditional servants and believers or do we love God regardless of what does or doesn’t happen in our lives?
I started the blessedwombs & pregnancybyfaith ministry in 2009 while I was still barren. I stayed faithful. It wasn’t easy. I know God kept me. When, I look at my son I always say to myself it was worth it. Sometime we go through a dying experience as Christians where our flesh is being crucified. It’s humbling place. A place where the father can make and mold you into the person he created you to be so that his glory can be revealed in you.
1 And as Jesus passed by, he saw a man which was blind from his birth.
2 And his disciples asked him, saying, Master, who did sin, this man, or his parents, that he was born blind?
3 Jesus answered, Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents: but that the works of God should be made manifest in him.
Romans 8: 18 For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.
Now in my ministry, I am seeing a harvest of healing and miracles that amazes me. Pregnancy testimonies have been coming in more frequently. Some have even conceived in just 3 weeks after prayer for the fruit of the womb even after, 3 to 6 years of TTC. The Lord has been using me and my husband mightly to showcase the KINGDOM OF GOD WITH POWER . All the things that I had to endure was for a greater purpose beyond my understanding. Today, I can say that I am glad I went through it because If I never would have experienced infertiliy I would have never started this ministry, I wouldn't be ministering to you right now, I wouldn't be the one minstering healing and deliverance to people all across the land, I wouldn't have been able to witness to so many women who have reached out to me during a threatened miscarriage and see how God saves the baby, stops the bleeding and pain. So everyday, I give thanks to God for using me. Everything that I went through prepared me to be who he has called me to be. A mighty woman of God.